When I was good...

Earth Day just came and went, and like usual, I feel ashamed of myself. I wasn't always such a consuming loser of monsterous proportions. I stopped caring at some point, but I didn't stop so much as I was postponing my concern. Like, as soon as I had money i would do more, or when I was settled I would look into getting canvas shopping bags, why?

I remember watching an Earth Day special in the late 80's with Bette Midler as Mother Earth. I remember tearing up over it. I hit my teens shortly after where I argued saving the Ozone all day in my Gandhi tee-shirt. In the following years, I became a vegetarian and I worked at a restaurant that served only the best seasonal organic food. I recycled, I made bookmarks from old packaging (for gifts), I never went to Walmart and I truly had passion about the environment.

One day, I wasn't a vegetarian anymore, I can't even tell you how it happened. I was 24. I was having some identity issues. I had broke up with my perfect vegetarian boyfriend. I was about to go to Europe with my best friend, who was known to be the anti-hippie. (in an odd side note, this same gal is now the biggest granola chick I know. She will talk your ear off about organics and dope, it just goes to show, you really don't know who you are destined to become.) But I didn't wake up one day and decide to eat meat and shop corporate. it was an evolution. Maybe I WAS back-peddling a little bit, but it has brought me to who I am today.

Now, I have been eating meat for 6 years (ironically, the same amount of time I was vegetarian) I shop at Walmart ans Sam's Club. I am not proud at either of these things. I do, however, try to be mindful of my consumerism. I do try to do good where I can. In truth, I still plan on being better when I make more money, get married, have kids, have a real job, have more fre time, etc, etc, etc....